Dear Blog.
Second year on uni is hard. Like really hard. Remember last year when we all said "oh this year doesn't matter". This one does..and that's a lot of pressure.
Living with 4 best friends is hard; I'm not sure we're going to be best friends by the end.
It's strange to think I'm now an adult. I have my own house that I pay rent for, I take out the bins ever week and we actually have a cleaning rota! First year was like baby adult; now I think I'm an actual one.
The past 2 weeks I've spent longer in the library then I have sleeping. Lots of work means 8 hours in the library a day; stress means sleepless nights.
A month and 21 days ago something happened. It's made me the happiest girl in Bangor. My best friend became my boyfriend.
Honestly? What could be better then the person that knows me more than anyone on this earth to turn around and say he feels the same, from the very first day.
Life has taken over my blog- I had to have priorities; and despite what I'd prefer, my work comes first.
I see people link blog posts on twitter and facebook and wish I was still part of that bubble.
My boyfriend (yes, I said that. I have one now.) took me to the zoo for our month anniversary, the place I'm happiest, and then took me to the cinema on the way back as a surprise to see Skyfall, what I'd wanted to see for weeks. We got home and he cooked dinner for me. The next day he bought me chinese. He knows what makes me happy.
I'm sat in the library writing this. There's a girl opposite with a really nice jumper on with a glittery collar- it's very Christmassy. She keeps giving me weird looks, maybe because I keep staring at her jumper.
When Lauren (Belle Du Brighton) got married and announced her pregnancy recently, I was probably happier for her than some of my real life friends. It's crazy how many friends I made in the bloggersphere. Congratulations Lauren :)
Things have been tough recently; I'm scared my nan's going to die soon, I have 6 assignments due in before Christmas, my best friend has changed her perception of me; and that hurts, I've been ignored, given snide comments, bitched about, I've been called stupid, I've had extra tutoring and no sleep so I can prove them wrong.
Things have been tough recently; I'm scared my nan's going to die soon, I have 6 assignments due in before Christmas, my best friend has changed her perception of me; and that hurts, I've been ignored, given snide comments, bitched about, I've been called stupid, I've had extra tutoring and no sleep so I can prove them wrong.
A lot of things are amazing; I believe in a God that's saved me, and He continues to do so every single day, I got a job on my own merit- something small but I might not be as poor soon, I have been blessed with a very lovely new best friend that appeared just when I needed her; she's awesome, despite our differences in what we believe is right for my life at the moment- my parents love and support me no matter what, I discovered singing again; that makes me happy.
My blog was abandoned for a while, it was really hard as it was like my baby! When I saw Lauren's announcement I realised I wanted to get back on the horse and where I was, I can't guarantee anything regular- but I can guarantee I'm going to put my heart and soul into it.
I love my blog and all of you that read it.
From 2 months ago when I last posted; I hope you're all doing well.
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