Tuesday, 24 April 2012

My time in Hospital.

So this blog is about my life, what I wear, what I do. But ultimately my life.
And I try to be as honest as I can at all times, because you are my friends, and you are a really big part of my life. So here it goes.

I guess it's hard to describe pain, cause there is no way you can kinda transfer that feeling into words but Saturday morning at 4:15am, I felt pain like I never had before. 
I genuinely thought I was dying, I was begging God to let me live (yes a little OTT, but it was early and I hurt). I began saying sorry for all  the things that I've ever done, hoping that would spare me some pain.
That's how it started.

I'm not going to go into too much detail of what happened, as they are private and I will spare you the uncomfortable reading.

On Saturday evening I was admitted into hospital for severe pain and sickness, I was beyond scared.
I was put into a ward full of old ladies who needed the nurses at every beck and call as they were unable to do anything for themselves. As I'm in Wales, all the ladies spoke Welsh, and the nurses spoke Welsh back to them. 
The feeling of isolation was unreal.
My best friend Zara was allowed to stay with me for a while, but was told to go and get my things from home. So I was alone. 
Being 18, in a ward where they were speaking Welsh for the majority, and so far away from home and from my parents. Even now I'm getting teary thinking back to how scared and alone I felt.

I spent Sunday and Monday in hospital, almost constantly on a drip. 
For the majority of the time, I wasn't allowed to eat or drink and the one meal time I was allowed- I took two bites and couldn't stomach it. So on top of my pain and other sickness - I pulled muscles in my chest from vomiting too much (sorry for graphicness).
Hospitals are noisy places, and bright, especially at night. I got about 4 hours sleep over the time I was in hospital. It was a horrible horrible time. I had so many blood test done, and constantly had a needle in me taped onto my arm. Whilst on a drip, I couldn't moved more than 10cm, so all I could do was lay there in pain. What made it worse, was that I didn't have dignity.
 Whilst attached I obviously couldn't go far- meaning I had to use a sick bowl for my constant sickness.


How I was for the majority of my time in hospital

I'm now at home- and I thank God for that.
It was one of the hardest times of my life. But I believe that I was given the best friends in the world to deal with it in.
I've spoken so much about my friends before, how amazing they are. But I really cannot tell you enough how incredible they were. There were only 2 visiting hours a day, but each and every one of those hours they were there waiting to be let in at the door, and stayed until they were thrown out.
They bought me so many things to keep me busy, and not let me get bored (ofc I did anyway). They bought me flowers, so much chocolate and sweets (which are waiting for me to get better to eat!), books, dvds, magazines. Everything I could have ever wanted. 
One of my friends put a message onto the Facebook page of my CU, and also told my church that I was in hospital. I received so many prayers and well wishes, it helped me get through the time I was alone.
I genuinely can't put into words the thanks I have for my friends, and family. Their support was unreal.

My flowers

I also have another thank you, to you.
I have my comments on my blog emailed to me, and I get emails on my phone. The comments which you left on my previous post- although it was completely unrelated, really helped me. Knowing that you were reading and appreciating it, it really really helped.
I also put that I was in hospital on my twitter, and those of you that sent messages and well wishes- thank you so much. You really did help me.

So I'm out of hospital, still unwell. They managed to find out what was wrong with me. 
Not everyone I know found out so I'm not sure I want to tell blogger either. 
I lost a lot of blood through what happened, so am still feeling very weak and sick. But I'm at home and not in a hospital. And that's what I'm focusing on now.

Thank you again for helping me through all of this - give me a week and I'm hoping I'll be a lot better.

Love, Elizabeth xx

43 comments:

  1. omg darlin! I hope you feel beter asap. I'm praying for your recovery!

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  2. Glad you are ok now. Being in hospital is horrible.

    X

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  3. It sounded like you went through something really traumatic, but you stayed strong and you made it through. I'm glad you're okay now, or at least better anyway, which is the main thing. I pray that you get 100% better soon :)
    Much love xxx

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    1. Definitely on the road to recovery :) Thank you! xx

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  4. Sending big hugs to you. Hope you make a swift recovery. Your experience sounds downright awful.

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  5. That sounds awful, I'm sorry you've been so unwell! I shall send a wee prayer or two your way and hope you're back to full health soon.

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    1. Oh thank you so much, I really appreciate it :) xx

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  6. Hospitals are horrible places! I cant even start to think how you could have been feeling when you were alone. Glad that your friends were there to help you out though. Get well soon! xxx

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    1. They were amazing! Thank you :) xx

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  7. I hope you feel better asap sweet xo

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  8. Oh no hun, that sounds awful. Sorry you had to go through that, really hope you're starting to feel better now and that it's nothing too serious.
    I can relate to having all the hospital staff speaking Welsh as I spend a lot of time in Brazil, and when I first started coming here I had to go into hospital and didn't understand a word! Horrible, isn't it.
    Anyway, sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
    Mel xx


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    1. It really is horrible! Thank you so much :) xx

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  9. Oh bless your heart this is such a sweet post I'm sure your friends were there for you because you deserve it nonetheless your friends are treasures :) Glad your making a good recovery and I hope whatever it was that made you so poorly won't come back again!! Take it easy hun xx

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    1. They're just such amazing riends, and they don't realise it :)

      I really hope so! Thank you :) xx

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  10. Stay safe and get well soon girl.
    Love,
    Summer
    xx
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  11. So sorry to hear that Elizabeth, hospitals can definitely be scary...hope you feel better soon :)

    Annie
    The Other Side of Gray

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    1. They certainly are! Thank you :) xx

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  12. How horrible! I'm sorry you were in so much pain! I have been in the hospital (after having my babies) and it was SO hard to get sleep. I hope you are getting rest and feel better soon.

    Amy

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    1. Oh thank you, it really is hard to sleep with so much going on! xx

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  13. rest and sleep a lot, do not forget his medication in food or drink, get-well.

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  14. i hope you get better soon... That was not an uncomfortable reading sweetie, how u said...this is ur live and thanks for sharing it with us!i wish you the best!!

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    1. Thank you for your honest opinion, it means a lot :) xx

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  15. So sorry to hear you've not had the best last few weeks. You're very lucky to have friends around you like that, believe me people aren't always like that. I can only imagine how horrible it was feeling so lonely and especially being away from home, I hope my constant tweets helped brighten your day though! Really hope you start to feel better, take care of yourself and make sure you eat all that chocolate you were bought, it will help! XxxX http://thesecondhandrose.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Thank you so much for your support over the past few weeks, it really has meant so much to me! It really does help when there's someone that isn't around but is thinking of me. Thank you :) xxx

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  16. Such a sad post, I'm so sorry for all these pains! Hope you fell better soon!
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  17. I am so sorry you have been so sick!!! I hope you are feeling back to your usual, healthy self soon!

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  18. Oh my gosh hunni, I had no idea, I'm sorry I haven't tweeted :( I'm so sorry to hear all of that!
    I really hope you are okay and on the mend!
    You are right, you're a lucky girl for having such lovely friends, glad you had them with you! :) Its just ashame you didn't have much rest and felt isolated :(

    Praying for you to get very better soon!
    xxxxxx

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    1. Oh don't worry about it, we all have our lives to lead :)
      I really am so lucky to have them, I don't think they realise how special they are! Thank you so much :) xxx

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  19. Hope your okay Elizabeth! Get well soon :) :) x

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  20. Oh wow, I'm so sorry you had to go through that! Hospitals are scary! Glad you are feeling better! I hope you have a quick recovery! Sending positive thoughts your way!

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    Giovanna
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    1. They really are! Thank you :) xxx

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  21. I hope you are feeling good now! :)

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  22. Elizabeth, I feel terrible I haven't sent you any get well soon comments but I've just caught up with all you blogging lot. What a time for me to take a blogging break! I wasn't been ignorant I just had no idea sweetpea. Sending you lots and lots of love and hugs and hope you feel better soon.

    B xxx

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    1. Oh don't be silly, I knew you weren't on blogger! Haha I always get timing wrong so it's absolutely fine. Thank you :) xxx

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